I Have Thought A Lot About This is an autoethnographic re-telling of my experiences as a neurodivergent person navigating academic institutions; the grief and the gift of being and doing non-normativity within the (often) hyper-normative structures of academia. Through the language of fitting and misfitting developed by Rosemarie Garland-Thomson alongside Sara Ahmed’s exploration of queer orientations, I follow Judith Butler’s insistence that the thought of a possible life is as crucial as bread for those of us who have never been able to imagine it. These theories are critical companions to the furniture objects designed and fabricated throughout this thesis. The Buddy Desk, Armchair, and Chest Cabinet ultimately offer a response to the guiding question— how can we make the world a softer place?