Following my archival impulse, I access memories in the form of 8mm footage shot in 2002 - 2004 by my family members to read my own history. Taking an anti-masterful approach and building upon and working with the media to better understand what constitutes my being here as a particular kind of subject, I simultaneously meditate on the notion of memory, access, sound and the state of the post-digital. The installation RAM (Random-Access Memory) consists of a set of digitally recreated images, aligned to their original 8mm footage projected on the opposite wall. The original footage playing on a loop, is displayed next to a collection of soundtracks inspired by the memories from my childhood and the footage shot by my uncle across India and Italy. When we think of ourselves outside of the Grid of 9-5, which physical form and form of thought do we assume then? To what extent are our everyday experiences shaped by the past and to what extent is the past still happening?
In this installation I extend a hand from somewhere within this bundle of knots, outward and inward, relentlessly trying to trace my formative narratives that in ways both clear and less accessible, have shaped my self-understanding as a particular kind of subject in this country and economy.